Blighted Ovum

Well, I have my answer. Had an ultrasound today and there was a sac, a black hole, but nothing else. They took blood to check my levels and they will let me know if I need to come back on Wed to do another draw. The doctor said I should get the Rhogram shot. After they took my blood, the nurse told me to have a good day and take it easy and I left. 


When I got home, the office called me and asked if I got the shot. Nope! I forgot and the nurse forgot. They said that regardless of my numbers, I'll have to come in Wed to get the shot. I asked since there was no baby, was there even a chance of + blood mixing with mine? She said she'd check with the doctor and call me back. Since I'm O- and my husband is O+ I know I'll have to get them in the future and I guess I'll get in now just in case. 


So now I wait for the sac to pass and my number to get to 0 and I should hopefully get a period 4 weeks after that. The doctor said to probably wait for 2 cycles which I was surprised at. That could be 3 months from now. I have to schedule my yearly exam for February so I'll ask my primary doctor then. 


I had a bit of a melt down when we got home. My MIL sent me an email about a book she checked out from the library about pregnancy and she said she'll give it to me when we see them next week, that pretty much made me break down. I kept telling myself that we won't tell anyone till at least we see a heartbeat and here we tell my in-laws before I'm even 4 weeks along! I was just so excited and now I'm so pissed at myself. You can't ever tell someone again for the first time that you are pregnant. J is going to call his parents later tonight and tell them. I told him to say that I do not want any pity or anything, just go about like nothing happened. I was fine in the waiting room until J put his arm around me and said it'll be ok and he loved me, cue the tears! I think I need to put up a little wall to not break down all the time. When we were driving to the doctor, we said to each other that until we saw a heartbeat, we wouldn't consider it a baby yet. 


But we did get pregnant and that's the hard part. So now we just wait and we try again.


There's a big bottle of wine in my future tonight!