12 Weeks!

I don't know what it is about making it to 12 weeks, it feels like a huge milestone. Like this may just actually happen! I know things can still go wrong and I really don't want to be a Debbie Downer, but I need to keep my head level because I do not want to ever go through the feelings I went through when we miscarried last time. I am so nervous about the NT scan. I keep having nightmares that the ultrasound tech won't talk to us while she's doing the scan. I keep asking if everything is ok and she won't say anything. I have woken up a few nights in a cold sweat. I don't know what we would do if something is wrong with the baby. I would love to say I am strong enough to handle a special needs baby, but I know I'm not. J and I have talked about it and we both have said we would terminate if the baby would not have the quality of life we felt the baby deserved. I pray and pray some more that we will never have to make this decision. In less than 24 hours, we should know!

How far along? 12 weeks

How big is the peanut? Size of a plum

Total weight gain/loss? I'm almost positive I'm over 150, I pray I'm not over 155! UPDATE: I'm 152, so 7lbs, I'm not happy but my appetite is getting better so I need to start getting more fruit, veggies, and dairy in here and not so many carbs!

Maternity clothes? I bought 6 pair of pants for $50 from a lady on craigslist. They are Large's and pretty big on me, but I can see them fitting in a month or 2

Sleep? Pretty good, I'm falling back asleep after my nightly potty break

Best moment this week? My boobs getting bigger! I've always been a member of the "ittty bitty titty committee" and it's finally nice to see boobs!

Symptoms? Breaking out even worse! I've read if you break out, you're having a girl. I guess we'll see if that's right.

Food cravings? Still cranberry juice but I'm mixing with water.

Food aversions? Nothing's really making me want to puke so that's good but nothing is really standing out as a craving

Gender? J & I are talking about maybe finding out and not telling anyone. I really want to wait till delivery but I really want to know also. I'm thinking girl, J is thinking boy

Labor signs? heck no

Belly button in or out? In but getting wider

Wedding rings on or off? On

What I miss? Jimmy John's ham sub! I could still have it but heat up the meat but it just doesn't sound appetizing once you heat up lunch meat!

What I'm looking forward to? The NT scan on Monday! Only 2 weeks till we tell our parents!!

Milestones? Being 12 weeks!!

Bump? Yep, it's getting bigger and hard. Man, I am just not photogenic when pregnant! Granted I am not wearing makeup and I'm pretty tired today. J wanted me to do a bare belly pic each week, if I like it, I'll include it. I look so happy in that picture huh?!